Thursday, December 28, 2006

My Mom's Best Friend

Hi All (If there's anyone left),

It's been a while so I'm not sure if anyone reads this anymore but regardless I'll use this arena to vent. In the past, I've spoken here predominantly about my dad's illness and death which occurred about a year ago now. I'm sorry to report that my mom has sustained another great loss in her life.

We got Muti about 12 years ago as a tiny little baby dog. My brother and I were both still at my parent's home at the time and we kept her in an egg crate. She was about the size of our arm from finger to elbow. We used to cradle her in our arm and hold her like a baby. She cried and cooooed before barking and warmed on the graces of everyone she met. Prior to having this dog, I would have walked across the street if I saw a dog on my path. I was frightened of all animals.

Soon enough she started to grow. She got very playful. She ran circles around herself chasing her tail for endless amounts of time. If you took out a towel to play with her, she could entertain you for hours trying to grab it and hang on. Her zest for these activities was literally like watching a child walk and talk for the first time. Her appetite for food was ferocious. We trained her to not walk on carpets and go to the bathroom out back without anyone having to walk her. She was such a great dog with so little maintenance. She ate the food you gave her but was pleasantly surprised when you gave her real food. She listened when you called her or sent her away. She knew her place and always stayed out of the way when people who were scared of her were around. She was very gentle around my kids later on and was so careful not to move near them as the strength of her eventual 60 pound body could have knocked them over with just a wag of her tail. She was really all that you could ask for in a dog.

When my father passed away, Muti became my mom's security blanket. She was thrilled to still have something in the house to come home to and her frightening bark let my mother know when there were strangers or anyone around. My mom didn't sit down to meals entirely alone as there was always another physical being around. I understand now where the quote "Dog is man's best friend" comes from. Muti was just what my mom needed at the time to keep her from going insane.

About two to three weeks ago, Muti started showing signs of sickness. Her belly swelled up and she became very lethargic. My mom took her to a vet to get her checked. They said it was probably advanced illness of some sort and wanted to take ex-rays. She asked the vet what could be done for any of the illnesses suspected. He said not much do to her age. She did not subject Muti to the ex-rays. She brought her home not sure what to do with her. We all told her to put Muti to sleep and keep her out of pain and misery. She couldn't bring herself to do it knowing that when she got to the vet, her sweet dog was going to get killed. Last night Muti came into my mom's room and was struggling with her breathing. My mom called my brother and told him she wanted to take the dog right then to take care of it. She couldn't watch Muti suffer. The dog barely made to the car on her own. By the time they got to the vet, my brother had to carry the dog in. They walked into the door, and as they did Muti fell to the floor and died. It was natural and my mom was happy she didn't have to do anything to her. She and I will miss her terribly.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Good Luck AirTime

With a farewell barbeque, we bid Airtime a Goodbye and Good Luck. As it turns out, with the Airtime's making aliyah we might get a chance to see them more frequently. Chances are we will visit Israel sooner than we will get to Detroit.

We got together last night and partied like it was 1999 with people who we have not seen since about then. For me it was a chance to catch up with not only the immediate Airtimes but also some extended Airtimes. I always like to hear how the family who is not making aliyah is taking the move. In the case of Airtime, it looks like the whole family on both sides will be there eventually so it's good news all around.

I want to wish Airtime and family much hatzlacha and lots of happiness with their move. We are very proud of them and we hope everything runs smoothly and easily for them.

If You Like To Dance

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It doesn't matter what your genre is, he's got it all.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Like GrandFather Like Son

Kids are so cool. So many things I love about them. Their innocence is great. It makes them susceptible to being real and always showing their true emotions without facade. Their zest and love for new things and thirst for acquiring knowledge makes everyday a new and fun learning experience for them. They go through life not afraid to love or be loved, displaying untainted and unconditional expression and joy. The one thing I really love about kids, specifically my own, is how they are just like the hub and I and even my dad.

While all of my kids look exactly like hub (in my house they ask who the momma is), my middlest, who is 4, seems to come right from my side of the family in terms of personality. To be honest he is really most similar to my father. He has been goofing around since the day he was born. When teachers ask him in school how to describe himself, he can only say that he is silly. He carries jokes in his head and will stop at no cost to make people laugh. My father used to say that he might be the only person that can carry the title of Rabbi and comedian. It helps that he is purely delicious looking with bright blue eyes just like my dad. He enjoys the same foods as my pop and I, with our favorites being baked ziti, chips, and pickles. He doesn't take school to seriously as it comes very easily to him. He is a night person like my dad and I, so the other night as he was lying in bed about an hour and half after his bedtime, I went to lie down with him. For a while now, he has been asking me different math questions all the time.

"Mommy what's 1 and 1?... 2"
"Mommy what's 8 and 8?... 16"
"Mommy what's 32 and 32?... 64"
"Mommy what's 64 and 64?... 128"
"Mommy what's 6 and 12?... 18"

All along I have been thinking, great he has good memorization skills, thank you cyberchase. Just out of curiosity, I started throwing out random numbers to him. He started answering properly and I was thinking, cool he's getting lucky with the answers. Then I started giving him 3 numbers to add together. Again right answers. Then I went onto four numbers. Then subtraction. Right again again and again. It then dawned on me that he wasn't getting lucky anymore and really he is just a math genius like my dad. We now go through our tables every night. The 3 table then the 4 table. "Oh mom, I love the 5 table, it's sooo easy." The nicest part about this newest find is that my son continues to be a living, breathing resemblance and reminder of my dad.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

24... Final Thoughts

OK, could you believe MARTHA LOGAN? I mean, what she wouldn't do for her country! She showed tremendous courage in her act to frame her husband. She did it as an act of revenge for herself, for Aaron, and for the country. I didn't think that she had it in her to use her feminine powers of seduction while on all that medication but she was never clearer of mind. The only shady part of her performance last night to me was that smirk she had when security stepped up for Logan during his speech. While she despised Logan for how he acted, and certainly felt the weight of the world on her shoulders as the only one that could've delayed Logan's trip, I still think that she should have showed some compassion when he was taken just due to their long history together and the fact that she did truly love him before. Other than that, Martha was superb.

We knew that Logan had to go and there would be confrontation but I like how it all played out. I mean the final battle between he and Martha was riveting. Jack, being as slick as he was, placing the recorder on Logan himself, was brilliant. Logan was so well played and he had me convinced that he believed that he did everything for the country. He was so despicable that I had to close my eyes during the intimate Logan/Martha scene. It's great to see the villain go but I applaud his performance.

Onto Chloe. I love her. I'm a little perturbed at the husband being brought in. I don't like new characters popping up out of nowhere that have a history with the old ones. I only started watching the show last season so maybe he was on before but he is new to me. I loved loved loved the Chloe/Edgar picture. Such a great way to recap their strong bond. Nice touch for the writers.

Buchanan and homeland security woman, that was cute. I guess they are like the new Tony/Michelle. The show needs a good CTU worker's romance. We know Chloe will never get Jack. She will just pine away for him forever and risk her life continuously for him.

Audrey was a bit irritating. I would have liked to have seen her father back. They should have been smarter than to assume that Kim would be calling from a phoneline out to nowhere. Where were there instincts or were they just to wrapped up in the moment?

Jack's acting was superb as usual. Nothing left to say about him. His action stunts I don't care for much. OK, 1000 different ways to kill people, great! I liked him bloodied up at the end. Good makeup. I forgot about those Chinese folks. A nice connection from here to next season. Well done, 24. Hopefully, I'll see you next season.

Question about boys

Someone quoted me this today:

A daughter is a daughter for life
A son is a son till he takes a wife.

Should I be concerned about this as the mother of 3 boys?

Wednesday, May 17, 2006


I get a little choked up this time a year when all the shows are coming to a close. I don't catch too many of them throughout the year with the exception of Grey's Anatomy and 24 which I am religious about. But when it comes time for the shows to end, I feel compelled to watch them and see how they conclude. The toughest for me are the Series Finales even if I haven't watched the show for years. That 70's Show, 7th Heaven, The West Wing, Commander in Chief, and Will and Grace are all closing their doors for good.

More than the final episodes, I like seeing the cast take their final bows. It makes me see them as people and realize how most of them have become a family after working with each other day in and day out for so many years. These actors are then out of a job and looking for work. Will they go into movies? Perhaps another TV show. If they can't let go, they will try and come up with a sequel to the show that just closed. Closing the doors to comfortability and opening them up to new possiblities. One door closes while a new one opens. And such is the circle of life. Ahhhh, you learn so much from TV.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

How I'd love to dance with my father again

The lyrics flow in my head constantly even though I am not able to listen to music....

Back when I was a child,
before life removed all the innocence

My father would lift me high
and dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance,
another walk,
another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

If I could steal one final glance,
one final step,
one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

24 Update

What would you do if you were sitting in a bar ever so casually trying to get some work done and a persistent stranger kept coming over to pick you up even though you blatantly told him to go away? On top of that, the work that you do is so top secret that if anyone even gets a glance at it your whole cover could be blown. If you are Chloe O' Brian, you invite the distraction over as if you are responding to his rudeness and then you stun gun him to shut him up. When he wakes up you stun gun him again and both times it looks as if he has passed out on the table.

Those were my favorite scenes from last nights very disappointing 24.